i wrote him a letter i have a feelin that he wont read it and just throw it out but either way itll be fine cause i got everything out that i needed to get out. i have to say goodbye forever to him soon and idk how thats goin to go i just hope that i can do it without crying but i wont let him see me cry if i do end up crying. thats the last thing i want is for him to see how much it hurts to say goodbye to him. i want him to remember me not with tears in my eyes but a smile on my face and me happy thats the image of me that i want to leave him with. but wish me luck in saying goodbye to the only guy i have ever loved with all my heart and soul.
…and still the only guy i love that much